Dawn's Story:

The Vibration of Forgiveness by Dawn James

      The great English poet Alexander Pope wrote that “to err is human, to forgive divine."

      It truly takes great effort to forgive someone who has hurt you, especially someone you have trusted and loved your entire life, someone who was your confidante and your best friend. I am speaking from personal experience. I survived an attempted murder suicide that was initiated by my mother when I was six months pregnant with my first child. How do you bring yourself to forgive someone of such a violent act?

    The entire forgiveness process didn't happen overnight. It took me 16 years.

    I remember reliving the events of that day over and over. Then, instead of thinking about what happened to me I made a conscious decision to put myself in her world.

    I tried to think about what she was feeling and thinking that morning. What drove her to try to end my life and her own? And when I fully got into her consciousness, I came to the profound realization that this was a woman ravaged by fear—the fear of change and the fear of loss.

    These fears had plagued her since she was an infant and her mother died. When she was eight years old her father died and she was raised by stepparents who neither treated her nor regarded her as their own child. 

     She survived three miscarriages until, finally, I was born—her only child. And then some 20 years later she became terrified of “losing” me and my love to my new husband and first child, who was on the way. She could not accept that I was a wife and a mother-to-be. 

     All I can feel for her now is pity. After all, she had forgotten that love is infinite. I cannot love her less because I have two more people in my life to love. The more love I give, the more I have to give. I wholeheartedly forgave her and wished her the best life has to offer.

       The act of forgiveness means many things to many people, and for me it meant releasing the burden of this negative experience and letting go of the negative emotions that I was holding onto.

Through this journey  I became aware that we are bio-electric beings; that is, we have electric currents flowing through us and the frequency of these currents can affect our well-being. Our emotions are energy in motion, and because negative emotions vibrate at a low frequency emotions such as pain, fear and spite can restrict the flow of energy so that we become heavy, slow and often stuck.

For example, when we hold onto anger, this emotion can get stuck in our joints causing inflammation and pain, whereas deep emotional pain might affect the heart and respiratory system and fear, worry and anxiety can become trapped along the spine and affect the central nervous system.. Continued at right...